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Me thinks.. that the world may be a much quieter or happier place, if only those who offer neither insight nor effort, toward the resolution of a problem... simply remained silent about said issue.
Tomorrow night I will indulge in six, yes SIX hours of operatic splendor! ♥
I think a lady I work with and her husband will be going too, so I wont be completely alone. Not that I would mind if I were. I'm sure I'll be lost in the screen, and the magic of it all.
If you like the opera you should check it out! It makes me a little sad to know I wont be able to go see them all, but I will try my best to get as many of them in as I can.
Die Walküre looks like it will be great. I can't WAIT! :D
You are going to enjoy it SO much. That is actually the one I started my goddaughter Raven on when she was 4. She LOVES opera and the stories they tell.
I am so excited for you, and envious that I can't be there to see your face as you enjoy the production. =)
When they looked at my journal yesterday I couldn't tell which one was which. At first I thought it was a Cancer prank as well, then I saw all three. I figured from that point it wasn't.
Being 5'6" I like to think of myself as being average height for a female. (Even if I am at the short end of average.) Well, I went outside to park a truck last night and it was HUGE. Some man (yes.. only a man would do this, well, possibly a lumberjane but somehow I doubt it) had lifted this nissan truck so high that the top of the bed was level with top of my head. There was nothing for me to step on to get into it either. Thanks, asshole. It was one foot all the way up to hip level, and grab on to the bar that I can only assume was placed there in the event a midget had to actually drive this vehicle. I managed to get up into it, and in only one try. I'm so glad I didn't wear a skirt last night. =/ I have to hike them up to get into the big trucks and hummers, I would have had to pull my skirt up to my ass to get into that truck.
Yes that is very sad. And also goes to show that there are still decent caring people out there who will do what ever it takes to protect those that they love.
00:12 May 29 2011 Times Read: 1,255
My 13 hours last night turned into 14.5 courtesy of my boss oversleeping and not waking up until she was actually supposed to be at work. Combined with the person who worked last night botching something that created an extra hour of paperwork for me.
I've been dreaming about work during the sleep I've been getting. I think I'm spending too much time there. Lol
I want to say I'm going to have a fat check here in a couple of weeks, but I have a feeling uncle Sam is going to bend me over. Gotta love governmental incest. Thanks for not bringing lube, or buying me dinner when you rape my check uncle Sammy. :p
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Mom dinner. I think I'll go back to sleep daydreaming about sushi. =)
Uh.. yeah a VR policy that doesn't make sense to me. I'm fine with the not showing nips on this site 'cause I know it would get UGLY (understatement) fast. But why the fuck when I clicked on an advertisement on the VR man page did it take me here?
We're a site that also caters to minors... the advertising should as well. That's what I think anyway.
I learned something new about the penis last night. From the least expected source.. my butch lesbian security guard. O_o Who would have thought she would have known something that myself, and even my male coworker didn't know.
It spurred from a comment my friend made a few years ago that I thought was hilarious. She said, 'I don't like uncircumsized dicks. They smell funny.' So I get this image in my head of her going around sniffing peckers. O.O
I relay that comment to my coworkers last night, and my lesbian buddy starts talking about the smell coming from the white 'gunk' that guys get stuck in their foreskins when they're not circumsized. Having never heard of this before, both they guy and I thought she was having a go at us. I started jokingly calling it dick cheese. She was very adamant that it actually existed, but she couldn't remember what it was really called, and went out for a smoke. I figured that if the guy who actually HAS a dick doesn't know what she's talking about, maybe it's not true. -.- We all know what happens when one assumes.
She blows back through the office door and bursts out with 'It's called SMEGMA!' O_o What do I do? The same thing I always do when I want to find out what something is... I wikipedia'd smegma. Holy. Fucking. Shit. Pictures and all. My stomach lurched. I'll be damned if the muff diver didn't know more about peckers than us. Well, uncircumsized ones anyway. The very few penises that I've come into personal contact with have all been circumsized. For some odd reason I'm a little grateful for that now.
I had to throw my dinner away. They put a stinky cheese on top of my vegetable linguine. I wouldn't have been able to eat it thinking 'stinky cheese, stinky cheese, dick cheese, dick cheese, SMEGMA' going through my head. I ended up foraging some cereal when my stomach calmed down.
Eeew! LMAO...and won't be eating any cheese anytime soon.
08:27 May 26 2011 Times Read: 1,370
Another one bites the dust.
My best friend of 24 years is getting married next spring, well at least she's shooting for spring. I'm so happy for her. She finally found a guy who isn't a total piece of shit. =) I swear the last one needs to die a very slow agonizing death.
What does this mean to me? Lot's of planning. Unfortunately from another state. It also means I have about a year to get in shape. So I can stuff my ass in what is hopefully some not so gawd awful dress. Please no fugly taffeta dress, pleeeease!
Hopefully she will have good taste, or can be easily persuaded.
I have an idea for a coven. I've never really was interested in having one prior to now. I entertained the idea of a monstrosity of a coven sometime in the last year, but I let that idea go. I shared it with WC. Maybe if he's ever active again he'll pick up where I left off with that one.
This latest idea of mine isn't for me, but for some people I love. Not very many people at all would be allowed in. There's reasoning behind it. We'll see if I can develop this one, and if the people it is intended for bite.
The down side. I'll have to do the second account thing in order to visit my peeps in other societies. Damn. It's taken me 5 years to sire this bizzle. If it pans out the way I'm hoping, it will be well worth it though.
..all words that have been used to describe me lately. Do I mind? No. People will label me how they want. I am what I am. I bleed just the same as anyone else. I have no shame in admitting this.
It hurts to know I wont be moving back home. I find it way to enjoyable to be able to go outdoors during the day, and not worry about the heat making me sick. It's nice not worrying about how many times this year I'll get bronchitis from living in one of the most polluted cities in the country.
Days like today, it hits closer to home that I can't be near all of the friends I made back home. I don't have a lot of friends per se, but what I lack in numbers I make up in quality. The friends I do have, we've been through a lot together. I wonder if I will ever find friends here like I have back home. I doubt I will, working the hours that I do. Only the coyotes and bunnies are out when I am. I got pretty close to one person, but she moved out of state. People come, people go. In and out of our lives all of the time.
For now, I'll have to stick with listening to my friends audio blog, and try not to tear up. See I bleed like you. Just for different reasons I'm sure.
Plus Drew may get jealous and hunt me down for a fight. Lol
21:54 May 24 2011 Times Read: 1,423
I'm not looking forward to several aspects of my near future.
What if things don't pan out how one would hope? Does it make the sacrifice for nothing? The personal consequences would be befitting given the choice. To be wrong would be a tragedy. To be right would be fulfilling. At least that's the hope. Is the risk of choosing incorrectly, better than not choosing at all? To live ones life not knowing? Probably. Or one might live life with regret, wondering what might have been.
Perhaps I worry too much about this. Being selfish is not in my nature. I don't even know where to begin.
I need to figure out what I'm going to do to occupy my time. I guess work would be a good start. If nothing else it would generate more income. That's never really a bad thing is it?
I put my lip color on at 6 pm yesterday and it was still there at 10 am today. Despite drinking a handful of drinks, eating twice, and probably rubbing my face all over my pillow while I slept.
Now I know what to add to my wishlist for makeup! : ) Thanks, PD!
09:34 May 24 2011 Times Read: 1,448
I've been drinking, Oh boy, I'm going to feel like crap when I wake up. It's not because of the half a dozen long islands, and one crappy Mai Thai (sp?).
It's because whenever I go drinking with Ms. JJ we end up hitting the only drive thru open on the way home.
Next time bring a cooler with you, stop someplace you like for food, put it in the cooler, and later you won't need to stop at Crapdonalds. Just heat (if necessary) the food you bought earlier.
00:05 May 24 2011 Times Read: 1,459
I'm considering getting a second job again. (Trust me, I really DON'T want to.)
I just don't know how else I can come up with $4,000 for dental work. (Yes, that is after my insurance.)
Sitting here sipping a cappuccino, listening to the birds singing. WC messages me (I slept in and missed him this morning) and tells me we're supposed to have thunderstorms later today. ♥ I know you sun worshipers miss your sun, but rain and lightning suits me better. It would be nice to have both so everyone can be happy. Bright sunny mornings for you star lovers, and stormy afternoons or evenings for my peeps.
Now that I've found an old Carole Lombard movie for background noise, and coffee in my system, I'd best get my day started. Time to start the laundry, clean up the kitchen, then make my apple streussel coffee cake, while that's in the oven, I need to clean stinky shitty litter boxes, and then more laundry, probably a trip to a grocery store or two while I'm at it too.
Fun fun. No lazy days off for me. Maybe if I find some free time, I'll sneak in some hooking while I'm at it. I had a scarf halfway done, and I pulled it all out last night because I changed my mind on the width of it. Lol
LOL Well, if you like fierce weather, Scotland is where it's at right now....Thunder and lightening - very very frightening...
and its the height of our summer almost. Hailstones on Friday that were so huge they hurt like hell. I love it but I also love the sun and that doesn't seem to be anywhere on the horizon.
Meh - you had me at coffee lol We had huge storms here last night. I love the storms so much raw energy.
fuck you GP!
10:30 May 22 2011 Times Read: 1,512
I'm having such an awesome night at work that I don't know if I'd rather start punching people in the face, or straight kicking them in their dicks/cunts.
I will refrain from violence, and if I'm still wound up when I get home I'll go to the gym downstairs and punish myself.
... my coworker asks last night. Hahaha not only did I tell him, I offered to draw him a picture too. He declined my offer for artwork, so I looked it up on wikipedia for him instead. Did you know teabagging has its own wikipedia page? I didn't.
The conversation went down hill from there. Blumpkins were also discussed. I did not bring that topic up either. The mention of the angry dragon however, was my doing. Sick monkeys of a feather, and all that jazz.
This is the same coworker who earlier in the week had no idea what I was talking about when I told him I was in the mood for Italian, and I asked if we should partake in Pavarotti or Bocelli. Hahaha one thing at a time I suppose. If crude humor is what I can get, I'll gladly take it. At least I no longer work with monumental fucktards. I'm so glad those days are over (for now).
I checked out Five Guys Burgers and Fries with WC tonight. I wasn't really all that impressed. WC said he liked his burger, though he opted to load his up with more stuff than I did.
I found my bacon cheeseburger, with mushrooms and A1 to be almost dry. The cheese overpowered the A1. Luckily they did not skimp on the mushrooms. Their burger consists of two thinner patties. I think this is where I like Red Robin more. If I'm going to eat a burger, I prefer a thick juicy patty.
The cost of burgers fries and drinks for two people at 5 guys, ends up costing about the same as it does at Red Robin. $25 for two people.
It wasn't bad, but not the best either. It's better than the usual fast food chains, burger king, crapdonalds.. etc. However if I'm going to drop $12 on something as simple as a burger, I'd like to enjoy it a bit more.
I know, right? I've tried them twice and -- unless I'm incredibly unlucky enough to get two underwhelming meals from them on two successive occasions -- I was not impressed by the mediocre quality. The fries were good, but overall, I just don't get it.
We have a Five Guys here as well. We went there a few weeks back. I wasn't that impressed with the burger at all either. But I thought the dirty cut fries were incredible.
01:47 May 20 2011 Times Read: 1,570
I must have the only cat in existance that is part retriever. The damn animal keeps hounding me to play fetch, and will keep hounding until he is finished playing.
I don't have any idea what direction I am going. I'm not even sure where I am. I just know where I've been.
I feel lost. It's my own doing. You cant invoke the winds without some form of consequence.
I have no desire to sleep until I'm exhausted. I have no desire to sleep until I'm rested.
I have a million thoughts spinning in my head, and I don't have the ability to grasp any of them at the present time.
I need time. To heal I think. The wound is fresh, yet the knife hasn't been ripped from it yet. There's still plenty of bleeding to be done before healing can begin.
Hmm.. that reminds me... I haven't been electrocuted on webcam recently...
20:13 May 15 2011 Times Read: 1,636
I don't like sharing things I wright. My daily thoughts are trivial. My writing is a glimpse of my inner workings. I'm not comfortable showing people that. A friends beautiful poetry has inspired me to share a small piece of me. I don't think I've posted this one before. I don't believe I've shared this with more than a couple of people on here. This one has actually been published, so I don't need to worry about plagerism. It wasn't originally repetitive, but it was rewritten to be sung. Share your honest opinions, I can deal with criticism.
Tortured Soul
It's not the hand that hit me, it's not the things you said.
You really fucked me up, you did it through my head.
You beat me with your actions, you scar me with your thoughts.
I wasn't what you wanted, but I was what you got.
Neglected, rejected, by you I've been infected
Poisoned by triviality
Raped by your expressions
And beaten into reality
I hate you, I'll break you
I wish that I could waste you
Drowning in my sadness
I loathe you through and through
To satisfy my madness.
I feel so insignificant, your words molest my soul
I'd love to live without it, but without it I'm not whole.
I laugh out loud, I cry inside,
and because of you I have to hide.
Neglected, rejected, by you I've been infected
Poisoned by triviality
Raped by your expressions
And beaten into reality
I hate you, I'll break you
I wish that I could waste you
Drowning in my sadness
I loathe you through and through
To satisfy my madness.
I feel so deserted, you fill my life with shit.
I knew from the beginning in this "family" I don't fit.
At your funeral I'll be smiling, I know I will not cry
I can't cry when I'm happy, I'll be happy when you die.
As the words were consumed and digested, I recalled a time when the same sentiments were felt on a continual basis. It is not often that something like that occurs, so it is a testament to the talent you possess. I hope you will share more of your work with us in the future and allow us to glimpse this creatively inspiring side of yourself :)
18:35 May 15 2011 Times Read: 1,643
I have decided that I'm way, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too fat.
I don't like being a fucking heifer.
I need to start spending 2 hours a day in the gym again.
Going in early, and staying late in the morning. So much for corporates 'no overtime' rule as of late. It would be nice if I didn't have to send an email to my department head explaining every minute of why I was here over 40 this week.
I don't suppose 'this place is a fucking shit show right now' would suffice.
I need a back rub. My back is hurting quite a bit, and for once it isn't my SI or my sciatic nerve. It's all of the muscles from the middle of my back to my lower back.
I mayhave to take a muscle relaxer to get some sleep today.
I'm sitting at work bullshitting with the employees, another fun night at work. You have to laugh through the stress or it will eat you alive. I was working while yapping with both of them when one of them pops off with 'flick my bean'. Before I had time to even think about what was about to happen, it flew out of my mouth... just like a goddamn parrot...
I rub my bean back and forth, I rub my bean back and forth.
They are now having random giggle fits and teasing me about it. I will get them back.
I like to quote something every night from a conversation I have with my employees, whether I said it, or they did. It get's pretty amusing sometimes (to me anyway). Tonight's quote of the night is too inappropriate for facebook considering I have a handful of coworkers and bosses on there that wouldn't appreciate it. So lucky for you guys, it gets dumped here.
Quote of the night: 'why does your phone smell like stinky pussy?'
Lol no one's phone actually smelled like pussy. It was just a conversation gone wrong. ;)
04:04 May 12 2011 Times Read: 1,712
I took a nap. Mostly because I was having abdominal pain that was doubling me over when I stood up. I think I aggravated the adhesions or clamps when I was stretching yesterday.
I had dreams that started out with the kind of dysfunction and gore you only see in movies like the SAW series. It continued with me being pushed toward a door that scared the he'll out of me (yeah I have no idea why I would be scared of a door). Despite my objections I continued being pushed, and eventually dragged toward the door. I began screaming hysterically and clawing at the wall, removing paint and leaving claw marks. He let me go and was laughing. The dream ended with me saving a puppy that had drown, but rather than dying the pup was reborn.
Yeah I don't know where my head comes up with this shit. I don't know how I can be screaming and hysterical in my dream and remain quiet and still the whole time I'm sleeping. I also at one point in my dream stopped breathing. It reminds me of my last visit home. My friend who stayed over with me at the resort one night told me that I stop breathing in my sleep. I might be creeped out at the fact she watched me sleep, if I didn't know she was an insomniac. Heheh
I recently ready Kate Chopin's The Awakening. I enjoyed the story a great deal. I find irony in the fact that the one snippet I opted to quote below while reading it, is the one that later brings the story to a close.
It was unfortunately the first book that I've found time to read this year. I need to make more time in my life for reading. I miss it. Perhaps some day, I'll be inspired to write again as well.
I should be exhausted. I've been up for 24 hours. The weather (among other things) has me wound up. It's cold and raining. I love it. The more I love this weather, the stronger I'm pulled to the northwest where I can enjoy this kind of environment more frequently. It would be a hard move though. My family already misses me so much, and I only get to to see them once a year as it is.
We'll see where my life takes me. Whether it's closer to, or further from home.
The temperature is rising. It's nowhere near the 110+ summers we have back home. But as I grow more used to the cold, I become more sensitive to the heat. I never have liked the heat.
One of the best parts of the summer is taking nice cold showers. They're so exhilarating. Unfortunately I haven't found a man yet who can tolerate cold showers. Luckily it hasn't gotten warm enough yet to go right from the shower to laying in front of a fan.
The voice of the sea is seductive; never ceasing, whispering, clamoring, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander for a spell in abysses of solitude; to lose itself in mazes of inward contemplation.
The voice of the sea speaks to the soul. The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the body in its soft, close embrace.
All aspects of my life are breaking me down, little by little. I need to change things, but I never learned how to fight for what I want. I have no clue what to do.
First thing you have to do is evaluate what makes you happy and get rid of everything that doesn't.
Chin up, beautiful. ♥
tmi o.0?
17:34 May 06 2011 Times Read: 1,821
I guess sometimes I just open my mouth and all kinds of shit flies out. I wasn't feeling well yesterday, so I caffeine loaded about halfway through my shift. Then I started talking. Things kind of went down hill at that point. I started ranting about something, and when I was done I looked over at both of my employees. They were just staring at me with dropped jaws. Apparently they feel I gave them a healthy dose of TMI. Oops?
Disappointment is a part of life. I'm no worse off than I was before. I just didn't get what I was shooting for. It was not meant to be I suppose. I have no clue where to go from here.
And I'm sure there's an Aries out there who's a pussy Requiem, but when I stand my ground on something and someone wants to have a shoving match, they're in for a hell of a head butting contest.
01:24 May 01 2011 Times Read: 1,331
Damn it. He's trying to convince me it's a true story. -.- He's going to ruin Alaska for me.
COMMENTS
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MooniePie
23:24 May 31 2011
Seeeee! He's a rockin' lil dude!
Deity
00:15 Jun 01 2011
He's my hero. ♥